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Thursday, December 15, 2011
Things are
coming to an end. After this letter that is being written is being submitted, I
hope the case can still move on. There seem to be more road blocks that I
thought. Overcoming them one by one alone is a tough one. I feel very
exhausted. Finally school is on a break for now. More time to rest and more
time to concentrate on what I have to settle.
2012 is
coming soon. That’s where I want to lock everything that is in the past and
move ahead with life. I threw away that key into the sea; but somehow that key
just keep washing itself up on shore and it found its way back to me. How
weird. Is it meant to stick with me? Or where else can I keep safe it so that I
won’t open it up again?
Three of
the Understanding Test 1 is out. Demoralizing than I thought. I didn’t do as
expected. Why am I rushing through the test? There were more careless mistakes
when I know I knew the answers to it. Two more results to go. I wonder how I
will fair in it. Hmm…. life
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Time Check: 10:38:35The day is coming to an end. I have turned older now. It’s pretty amazing how so many things happened in life. From a person feeling angry got cheered up, a person feeling happy drops down to sadness, a new life being born, a life was taken away. There are so many things that can happen in a day. Life is really full of surprises. Yesterday, you could be fighting with your girlfriend or boyfriend. The next, you two went out together. How fascinating. I must say today was an enjoyable day for me. Though there were not many that celebrated my birthday with me, I must say thank you to some who took the liberty to surprise me. Dinner with Amanda was great. I appreciate it a lot. Yes, I feel very full and very thankful. Saturday I was out on this day alone; hoping to get some past childhood memories. I went back to my very first primary school. Unfortunately, it’s no longer there. The first primary school in the year 2000, the windows were made of metals and glass. When you tried opening the windows, it will make that squeaky sound. The school is only three storeys high. The General Office is as small as two bedrooms combined together. There’s a swimming pool at the back of the school. Yes, I went for my swimming lessons there which I became lazy after the first lesson. Two years later, I found myself in another school. Keng Seng Primary – it’s no longer around, but this is where I started my education. My second primary school, Gan Eng Seng Primary. I never like life here. Suffocating. The secondary school is known to be a good secondary school. Gan Eng Seng School. Well, I spent my one and a half years here suffering. I was playful. Never like to study. Slacking a lot – Big time. That’s what I do. Grades were amazingly AWESOME. Even mom didn’t say anything about it. It’s pretty amazing how one place can actually so much within 10 years and the MRT color still remains as Pink. Yeap Pink. If you know which MRT station color is Pink, then you will know the station. Hahaha. Time Check: 11:06:30 Another 54 minutes left. And there’s school and Biochemistry UT tomorrow. Great!! Good night. It’s amazing how I turned 18 today. :D Wonder~
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Dear diary,I am left speechless today. I wonder why? Blind - Trax "Just once, just once, please look for me The more you feel, the more you feel I become more and more invisible" Dear Diary.....
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
It’s another day. Things didn’t go as well as I thought it would be. I feel sick. Not physically sick but mentally sick. Not those psychotic stuff but more of pressure and my head seems to be in a wild mess. I have no idea who was the one that wreck my brain into pieces. I’ve been dreaming. The nightmares keep waking me up at 4.00 am in the morning. I can barely get my rest. My eyelids are always heavy. I feel really exhausted. Just what hole is pulling me into it? I can say it is not some quick sand or something. But I am sure this hole is draining my energy up. Sigh! |
Goodbye.
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